Paranoia, depression and love. About a time when the directors Gamma Bak (West Berlin) and Steffen Reck (East Berlin) had a cross-border relationship - despite the Berlin wall - and the guilt and sense of betrayal resulting from being forced to defect in 1988. Completed 25 years after the Fall of the Wall, this film is a striking historical document taking us back in time - personal archival material, film, video and theatre clips, and Secret Police (STASI) files ENGELBECKEN also reflects the dilemma of the mixed emotions felt when one is forced into exile. Includes excerpts of the work of the legendary East Berlin avant-garde theatre group ZINNOBER of which Steffen Reck was a founding member.